Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Goodbye 2008

Days have passed
now memories only last
Time did not stop
no matter how strongly i fought
2008 is about to leave
One thing i say today
"please never return 2008
no happiness you gave
and every time i failed
you took my relations away"
It is my final word today
"Goodbye 2008"

Monday, November 24, 2008

Wilting Rose

Days have passed
Those nights did not last
Our scent was lost
After the day we fought
I halted there
knowing that one day
you will come here
I know my mistakes
which my selfish love made
Now i can recall
how many times you have stopped
I don't know where i went wrong
unable to explain
unable to explore
This is the only thing i know
"It doesn't hurt to be honest you know"
Your these words
make me beg my Lord
I understand
am bit too late
but please be my mate!
Touch this wilting rose
from your hand
and grant it the love it lacked

Monday, November 17, 2008

The winter is back again

Chilly winds blowing
Dry leaves falling
No birds flying
On a window,
she is standing.
Weather is changing
so is her life...
No wind gives her a feeling
with a silence she's standing
Silk gown she is wearing
She is only starring
deep through barren forest ahead
Her arms are still bleeding
No tears have left her eyes
Crying eyes she's carrying
Dark clouds are surrounding again.
Thunders she is hearing
but still she's standing
No thunder scares her anymore
It's raining now
Tiny drop fall
on her hand wound
With a feeling she blinks
Uttering in a low voice
while turning
"you back?
Oh,the winter is back again"

Monday, November 10, 2008

No,Am departing...

Feeling as numb as ever
it feels as if i have a high fever
Standing outside the airport
with trolley full of luggage
things which have no need
Looking at the lights around
I feel the darkness surround
Someone tells me "check in is open"
i turn around to look
strange faces i only faces
With my head low,
I step ahead
on the unknown path that lead.
Old man gives me my boarding pass
I gaze at it
to know my destination
Blank paper i can only see
I ask the old man
"Where am i going?"
He blesses me with his hand
"lucky you are,
going to the holy country"
Giving him a fake smile
i move ahead
while questioning myself
"Will i find peace in the holy city?
Isn't God same everywhere?"
weird thoughts inside
with whom i daily fight.
I stand up on my final call
to the plane i move.
Settling on one seat
my tears meet my cheeks
Air hostess comes and ask
"Are you alright ma'am?"
with a low voice i utter
"No,Am departing...."

Hope has died again

Hope has died again
No one is aware of feelings dead
Darkness is spreading around
coz the only burning candle is blown away.
God knows the every detail
now in the life test i have failed
Afraid of darkness around,
i touch my bleeding wounds
to hear a voice only
Not thinking of pain anymore
'coz Hope has died again
No one is aware of feelings dead

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Simple Love Story

If you can hear me.
I will tell you a story,
story i saw!
It is not a story of a day,
it is a indeed a story of a moth
who lived and died
who just knew how to love.
Knowing everything around
once he forgot...
in which he somewhere lost.
Loving a candle was his fault
coz his identity he forgot.
Then came a dark night,
night which had no light.
Seeing bright candle in the darkness
Moth forgot...
Not knowing the reality of life,
just aware of pure love inside.
Moth just touched the candle......

Now the candle does not sleep
after that dark night.
which wrote a eternal love tale.
Candle only cries!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Life stopped

No words on her lips,
she stand on the road forsaked.
Not knowing anything around,
not even aware of her destination now.
She is all silent
but inside she is fighting
all with herself.
Telling her soul
what she listened is all so true.
Everything has changed.
She suffocates in the cool breeze,
part of her is dying today
and she cant save!
Colors he sprinkled
all over her soul
are fading away.
Taking away all her strengths
and leaving her barren.
She asks
"did he ever love my soul or
he loved something else?
Was it part of me?"
Lips so dry and blue,
it seems all her dreams have shattered
who were soon coming true
Her voice is lost inside
her eyes so blank
There she disappears in fog
promising herself.
"I wont come back to life ever"

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Dance on tunes

Hold my hand in yours
and slapdash me in the lime light
where we are not aware of presence of people anymore.
Bring me close,
let your sight peep in me
and witness me deeply
not making me feel awkward in your eyes.
See inside me,
deep inside.
Place which still i haven't explored!
Sketch my inner picture in your eyes
'coz now i want to see myself from your way.
Place your other hand on my back
letting me feel you,
filling spaces where i lack.
Little conscious i get
You move the hair lock from my face
caressing me on the back of my ear.
With little shyness on my face,
you come closer and
kiss my neck.
With confused look on my face
i gaze.
You turn me around
on the pure tunes of heart.
and whisper me in my ear
"let's dance on heart tunes"
while touching my heart.

The strings of my heart
gave a music to my song
we were lost at last in
the beats of our heart.....

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

full of lies

With the bright monochromatic dream,
Am the wounded clown tired of lying?
I just want one tear of pity,
Wet this parched throat
With your red drops.
Because to me a dream is a black death
When I wake up in the morning
Am resurrected again
Am tired of repeating the same thing everyday
Are you tired of living?
Or of dying?

Monday, August 11, 2008

Happy Birthday

Burning one candle on cake,
i let the darkness go away!
i smile on this scene,
remembering the way he made my life.
Making me forget my fears
and making me smile in tears.
I promise myself that
on this special day i wont cry.
Standing in front of window,
i feel the world so happy
'coz someone is celebrating his day.
I whisper in wind's ear,
"Happy birthday pagal"
with few kisses i sent.
Knowing that his window will be open,
this wish will wake him up
and I'll be the first one to wish.
If i was near,
he would surely jump from bed,
Before i could hug him
He's going to gaze.
And from his beautiful eyes,
I will know.
Touching his lips with mine,
i feel his another print on me.
When i will look at him again,
he's going to make me blush.
With a smile on face,
i came back to the reality.
I cit the cake,
feeling his presence near
and sing song for him
"Happy birthday to you,
May you have many more"
Claps echoes in my ears
and i sit on the floor
with gift in hand.
Starring the candle
and waiting to hear him once again!

P.s:This is my really personal poem and is dedicated to someone really special:) and dont comment on it badly:D

Friends left

Oh you people who left,
I wish you only happiness
I want to wish you all only luck,
So enjoy every step.
You all were beautiful mates
coz everytime you made my life safe,
Together we played,
together we fought,
together we laughed.
And you all will live in my heart,
I appologize for being bad sometimes
and i know you all will forgive!
Cant explain fun and happiness you brought,
thanks to all of you!
Reason we are apart
is my wrong act
But that was the best way i had,
I dont want to take your time
coz now its not mine
and now cant explain reasons for miles.
Today am leaving you all
with best wishes in heart.
May you get all you desire
coz am ready to burn in this fire,
Sometimes its better to say
than to fight.
So here's a final goodbye
Dont call me from back,
I may not be able to get again strong
May God bless you all!

Happiness Path

Packing my all belonging,
i set off for the last journey
Not aware if any destination
but still i walk.
My heart is heavy
and my soul aches.
The path is dark
but i walk to search for a light.
Light that will brighten my life
and will never fuse.
with silent prayers on my lips
i walk scared on the path.
I talk to God in my heart,
telling Him how scared am i
I pray to him
"O Lord,grant me happiness
i ask for his presence
i wish he will ask for mine"
Lost in his thoughts
i walk.
Stopping by a board
saying"This way happiness"
Before i moved to the happiness path,
I ask my Lord
"will he be there?"
Not hearing any answer
I fall on the ground
"i can live without happiness
but not without him,
coz his presence will bring the happiness ultimate"

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Forgive me

Forgive me my love,
for my every sin.
All my acts that have hurt.
I cant take this burden anymore.
My soul now bleeds
so ashamed i am of my deeds,
Forgive me my love,
for my every sin.
I hate myself for hurting you
without seeing the pain in you.
I never thought of doing this to you
but still i ask for forgiveness.
I want to take your hand
and start another life.
I want to love you again
with sincerity and purity.
Give me one chance,
I promise I give your girl back.
with everything that i lacked.
Its only my fault
that i forgot your pain.
Somewhere between taking care of you,
i forgot that i was hurting you.
Today i realized
my boy was my sunshine.
You took away all relations with you
and left me with tears few.
Am all stuck on this path,
please take my hand.
I don't deserve this forgiveness
but still i ask for your mercy.
I don't believe my act,
how can i betray ?
I couldn't recognize the loyalty
but forgive me.
Oh my love.
If you will be near
no other mistake will be made.
Forgive me my love,
Give my your hand again

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

We still love

Oh these dark nights,
look at these dark moments of life.
Listen what they are telling.
They carry the message of thousand people,
people who love you.
Dark nights write tales in fates.
Some wait for love to knock,
some enjoy their love near,
and other spend time in loneliness.
Sometimes people who walk beside us mean nothing.
Why life partners dont walk beside us all life?
Sometimes they are ours,
sometimes just a dream.
Mates do not say anything.
We walk with them daily,
not knowing about OUR destination.
unaware of the bonds being broken.
Together we wait for each other.
to say something at least.
But still we hesitate.
We keep telling ourselves,
"why me?cant he speak?"
and time passes.
In this clash,
we don't hear the cracking sound of relationship.
We realize this when sand has slipped.
And then we end up on this
"Those we love,
never go away.
They walk beside us everyday.
Un-seen un-heard
and still near,
still loved ,
still missed ,
and still very dear

Tuesday, August 5, 2008


Why did I love you?

I ask my heart today

It has to answer questions few,

I don’t want to listen any but.

Am slowly getting tired of cuts.

I lean by a window and think,

About the day I actually started to love.

I can’t remember the date!

It feels like loving you from the first day

I see my all dreams related to you

With tears few.

It seems as if God has joined

My every happiness with you.

Telling my mind every second,

Don thinks about him.

Sitting on this window

Thunderstorms I have seen,

With ever lighting,

I get scared.

Telling heart straight

“Get normal without him”

I move my hand away

From the bed sheet they gripped.

Knowing” there would be no hand to caress”

To act as if am normal

I tell my mind lets bath in this rain”

But my heart moans with pain.

“So weird you are,

You miss him in every rain

How can you enjoy?

When you have messed

For how long can you betray?

From past many months,

You are cheating his girl.

Aren’t you tired now?

Why you put on the smile so fake?

Why you want people

Not know about his girl?

Why you socialize?

When you know his girl wants to be in dark.

Why you still hide his girl from him?

When you know,

He won’t utter a single word.

Don’t give him more wounds from your silence

Let his girl run to him

And say in his eyes

“Without you I cant live””

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Blue sea

In dark night,
i want to spend time with blue sea,
all alone.
With no one to questions me
and with no one to answer me.
I want to see blue sea.
It is going to answer my questions
that have made me uneasy in bed.
I sit all alone on the wet sand
and calm i am.
when i see just my footprints
I gaze at the deep blue sea,
when it caresses me wet on my feet.
Tears fall in my lap
and i wonder
"how it knows that i am sad?"
In silent moments of the night,
i ask.
Through a cold breeze it answers,
"i have seen billions of people
this shore has heard different stories.
Couples meet and love here
in nights,
lonely people come here.
I hide their tears in my waves
and calm them down.
They forget these tears.
when they are happy again.
No one questions me
whether am okay
but still i carry tears for people so mean.
For people like you,
i keep pearls like this safe"
with another wave,
sea sent me a pearl.
"visit me daily
when you are free
'coz somewhere i need to know my fears"
Sea went calm
and slept with black blanket.
I stood from my place
with pearl in my hand and said
"This is the reason sea is always blue

Tuesday, July 29, 2008


Love me once more,
this life seems so small.
I wanna be loved again
I wanna love you again!
The days we spent together,
the nights we cuddled,
I want to feel it again.
I desire to learn you again,
from the bottom.
I desire for nothing more.
I want to show it to myself
that i love an angel.
Bury me,
somewhere between your arms.
where i can crave for your love again.
Let us enjoy the dark nights on terrace again.
Let's make a silent prayer
when we watch a falling star.
Let's laugh on our innocence again.
With closed eyes,
lets feel each other's presence again.
Let's communicate through eyes
and say everything which words couldn't say.
Let me be yours again,
and let yourself be mine.
Let's live this love again
we may not get time!

Friday, July 25, 2008

dark night

Counting the days that passed
i was drifted to our past.
I settle myself in the desert's sand
Lost in my thoughts
i think of the unlucky day when we fought
Laying down on my back,
i look at the sky so dark
No stars shine now,
are they too angry coz i fibbed>
Do they also think same?
Cant they see tears that i shed?
are they less than the pain he suffered?
Is He telling me the same
Who lived above seven clouds
I find moon in the sky
may be there he will be seeing too.
Moon isn't here either
He has taken everything with him
making my life dim.
So sure i am now,
God is on his side
that why He wasn't sad when i cried
he surely is an angel from above
whom i really love,
"O lord forgive my for my sin,
and make me his"

Time Game

Time revealed its game today,

i stand faraway from this game.

Waiting to see what time has for me

I hope for something new in life

Time played the game

making me go insane.

It left a question on me,

"am i committed or am again single?"

with strange thoughts i mingle.

I have nowhere to go,

neither i desire the life of single.

Please take my hand

What more punishment you want to give?

For 7 months,like a widow i lived.

Am ready to have another punishment

'coz it has a feeling of you being near.

On my soul i got your prints

that has burnt your name in heart.

I have the label of your name,

coz in life only you came.

I don't desire anything from life

except wish of being your wedded wife.

I pray time will stop its game,

'coz now it has made me insane!.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008


Today i stand alone in this rain,
with my heart and soul full of pain.
I hate leaves so green
and flowers so bright.
Because today my life is black and white.
Every drop of this rain
is giving me the ultimate pain.
Tears run across my cheeks
who make me more weak.
I seek for pagal's voice,
voice that promised me.
"wont leave you in this condition
and i ll stand by your every position"
I cover my tummy with my hands
but my patience is slipping like sand.
In me ,part of pagal has grown
now this loneliness makes me moan,
I find no one taking my hand
when from the bed i have to stand.
No one locks the seat belt
in the absence that i felt.
Who is going to hold me tight
when I'll bring new life to our life.
Who will tell me,
whether it's little him or little me?
With a depressed heart,
i sit in the rain water,
waiting to hear
"come lets enjoy rain under this umbrella"
I drop my tear in the puddle
and with my loneliness i cuddle.

Saturday, July 19, 2008


Ever saw a girl of nineteen,
who lives her life to the fullest
She smiles,she laughs
She in fact an angel from heaven.
Every time you see her.
shes going to smile at you
no matter what shes goin through.
She always do what is in her mind
& will only walk on path she has find.
Never trust her memory.
she forgets the bad times like she is forty
shes gets crazy when it rains.
no matter how much she in in pain.
She loves to listen love songs.
And she won think of time that has gone.
She in indeed a different girl in millions.
may she achieves her dreams worth billions.
May no woe comes near her
May only happiness surrounds her.
Saman is like sugar spice
no doubt she is always nice!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Pages of fate

Today i sit by a window
am ready to open pages of my fate
that brought me sadness and happiness strange.
Fate has changed everything
I shiver at its thought
when i look back at my past.
Childhood was a joyful part.
i jumped,i laughed i enjoyed
wish it never went away.
Teenage brought feelings of bliss
i stood with my love!
Fate gave me my perfect match
so loving,so caring,and so handsome.
I found my destination
Misunderstandings changed my fate
all dreams shattered
life changed
I stand alone in frosty winds
i die daily in those winds
I fall on my knees
and ask my God
"why he wrote so many tests in fate?
please let death date me"
with this prayer on lips
i turn the pages of my fate
all are black and empty
Tear fell on the page
and wrote another sad tale

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Life together

I open my eyes,
so lucky i am.
I know together he is going to make our life.
And soon am going to be his wedded wife.
I laugh,i get crazy
when he tries to make me easy
On my clothes he throws ink
and when i stare he winks
I am sure of my fate
that wont make us hate
Together we laugh,together we cry
and we wont ever say Bye
We lay on terrace late at night
he covers me in his love tight
He teases me on my silly acts
I hide my face in his arms.
so safe,so warm ,just mine
that daily makes me all fine
we laugh ,we tease we fight
but we talk late at night
I thank God for making a perfect match
so i shout"i love you ,pagal"

Shattering dreams

Lets laugh on me
Don't worry i wont mind
coz today i have a shattered dream
In life there will be no light beam
He will take away all happiness
coz i made a mess!
I feel no frosty winds
coz part of me is dead
I don't feel sad
when i walk alone on those dried leaves
I am more hurt
coz you are about to leave
My dream is shattering
so am i
I shout ,i scream
coz i have a shattered dream
In this chilly wind
i am going to stand alone
No warmth will ignite my bone
You don hear my cries,
and now my tears have dried
Let's laugh on me
Don't worry i wont mind.

Friday, July 11, 2008


Recoiling against the corner wall
I let my tears fall
By a window,i lean
i think of people so mean.
So much darkness i see outside
Or is it the sadness inside?
His love was a blessing
I realize this as i see days passing
I laughed ,i smiled
I really lived my life!
"O my love,take my hand forever,
and leave me never"
I feel no warmth on bed,
"I will be there "that's what you said.
I don't know where to go,
without you i feel so low.
You hate when i cry,
and soon i will die!
Visit me daily on my grave
so we find the loved we craved?
I promise i will wait for you there
So i can have you near!

Saturday, July 5, 2008

slow steps

Slow steps with a heavy heart,
I walk slowly on this deserted path
As milestone pass by,
I silently ask my heart
How long can you bear?
“I don’t know,
For me, my reason is not there,
He was the one in millions
One its word I smiled
But poor heart criticized
“You have been cruel”
I fell on my knees,
“I was the place where he ruled”
But you are my heart!
My misery is am you part
Wish I could go away
‘Coz you betray!”
I shouted back
My soul does ache
In life I feel his absence
When I don’t smell his scent,/when I see crescent!
Why do you complain?
When you know I have gone insane
Am afraid of darkness he knew,
In me emptiness has grew
Ever wonder, why I walk slow?
So he finds when am no more.
In hands I bury my face
Tired I am of being strong fake
On every move my soul bleeds
When nowhere this path leads
Every night I fall by a milestone
To know how away he is more?
I wound myself more
Coz I betrayed a pure!

Last thought

My lips were shuddering

My mouth was dry
I don know
But I couldn’t try
Hear a cracking voice inside
So sure I was,
Closing my eyes
I let the eyes bleed!
Moved to the calendar with a sad heart
I mark today’s date with a red cross
His girl is going to die
I will burry her four feet deep
So forever she sleeps
His words have given wounds
Which have broken all bonds
Standing in front of mirror
I see his girl breaking
In darkness I stand,
I see things getting blur
Coz I know its time to go!
I close my eyes,
My voice doesn’t accompany
I utter “I love you,
May God bless you”
With closed eyes,
on floor I fall
Later I opened eyes
Heard a voice
Don’t worry she’s safe
Tears roll down And I say
Is love so strong or like its aches?