Days have passed now memories only last Time did not stop no matter how strongly i fought 2008 is about to leave One thing i say today "please never return 2008 no happiness you gave and every time i failed you took my relations away" It is my final word today "Goodbye 2008"
Days have passed Those nights did not last Our scent was lost After the day we fought I halted there knowing that one day you will come here I know my mistakes which my selfish love made Now i can recall how many times you have stopped I don't know where i went wrong unable to explain unable to explore This is the only thing i know "It doesn't hurt to be honest you know" Your these words make me beg my Lord I understand am bit too late but please be my mate! Touch this wilting rose from your hand and grant it the love it lacked
Chilly winds blowing Dry leaves falling No birds flying On a window, she is standing. Weather is changing so is her life... No wind gives her a feeling with a silence she's standing Silk gown she is wearing She is only starring deep through barren forest ahead Her arms are still bleeding No tears have left her eyes Crying eyes she's carrying Dark clouds are surrounding again. Thunders she is hearing but still she's standing No thunder scares her anymore It's raining now Tiny drop fall on her hand wound With a feeling she blinks Uttering in a low voice while turning "you back? Oh,the winter is back again"
Feeling as numb as ever it feels as if i have a high fever Standing outside the airport with trolley full of luggage things which have no need Looking at the lights around I feel the darkness surround Someone tells me "check in is open" i turn around to look strange faces i only faces With my head low, I step ahead on the unknown path that lead. Old man gives me my boarding pass I gaze at it to know my destination Blank paper i can only see I ask the old man "Where am i going?" He blesses me with his hand "lucky you are, going to the holy country" Giving him a fake smile i move ahead while questioning myself "Will i find peace in the holy city? Isn't God same everywhere?" weird thoughts inside with whom i daily fight. I stand up on my final call to the plane i move. Settling on one seat my tears meet my cheeks Air hostess comes and ask "Are you alright ma'am?" with a low voice i utter "No,Am departing...."
Hope has died again No one is aware of feelings dead Darkness is spreading around coz the only burning candle is blown away. God knows the every detail now in the life test i have failed Afraid of darkness around, i touch my bleeding wounds to hear a voice only Not thinking of pain anymore 'coz Hope has died again No one is aware of feelings dead
Come, If you can hear me. I will tell you a story, story i saw! It is not a story of a day, it is a indeed a story of a moth who lived and died who just knew how to love. Knowing everything around once he forgot... in which he somewhere lost. Loving a candle was his fault coz his identity he forgot. Then came a dark night, night which had no light. Seeing bright candle in the darkness Moth forgot... Not knowing the reality of life, just aware of pure love inside. Moth just touched the candle......
Now the candle does not sleep after that dark night. which wrote a eternal love tale. Candle only cries!
No words on her lips, she stand on the road forsaked. Not knowing anything around, not even aware of her destination now. She is all silent but inside she is fighting all with herself. Telling her soul what she listened is all so true. Everything has changed. She suffocates in the cool breeze, part of her is dying today and she cant save! Colors he sprinkled all over her soul are fading away. Taking away all her strengths and leaving her barren. She asks "did he ever love my soul or he loved something else? Was it part of me?" Lips so dry and blue, it seems all her dreams have shattered who were soon coming true Her voice is lost inside her eyes so blank There she disappears in fog promising herself. "I wont come back to life ever"
Hold my hand in yours and slapdash me in the lime light where we are not aware of presence of people anymore. Bring me close, let your sight peep in me and witness me deeply not making me feel awkward in your eyes. See inside me, deep inside. Place which still i haven't explored! Sketch my inner picture in your eyes 'coz now i want to see myself from your way. Place your other hand on my back letting me feel you, filling spaces where i lack. Little conscious i get You move the hair lock from my face caressing me on the back of my ear. With little shyness on my face, you come closer and kiss my neck. With confused look on my face i gaze. You turn me around on the pure tunes of heart. and whisper me in my ear "let's dance on heart tunes" while touching my heart.
The strings of my heart gave a music to my song we were lost at last in the beats of our heart.....
With the bright monochromatic dream, Am the wounded clown tired of lying? I just want one tear of pity, Wet this parched throat With your red drops. Because to me a dream is a black death When I wake up in the morning Am resurrected again Am tired of repeating the same thing everyday Are you tired of living? Or of dying?
Burning one candle on cake, i let the darkness go away! i smile on this scene, remembering the way he made my life. Making me forget my fears and making me smile in tears. I promise myself that on this special day i wont cry. Standing in front of window, i feel the world so happy 'coz someone is celebrating his day. I whisper in wind's ear, "Happy birthday pagal" with few kisses i sent. Knowing that his window will be open, this wish will wake him up and I'll be the first one to wish. If i was near, he would surely jump from bed, Before i could hug him He's going to gaze. And from his beautiful eyes, I will know. Touching his lips with mine, i feel his another print on me. When i will look at him again, he's going to make me blush. With a smile on face, i came back to the reality. I cit the cake, feeling his presence near and sing song for him "Happy birthday to you, May you have many more" Claps echoes in my ears and i sit on the floor with gift in hand. Starring the candle and waiting to hear him once again!
P.s:This is my really personal poem and is dedicated to someone really special:) and dont comment on it badly:D
Oh you people who left, I wish you only happiness I want to wish you all only luck, So enjoy every step. You all were beautiful mates coz everytime you made my life safe, Together we played, together we fought, together we laughed. And you all will live in my heart, I appologize for being bad sometimes and i know you all will forgive! Cant explain fun and happiness you brought, thanks to all of you! Reason we are apart is my wrong act But that was the best way i had, I dont want to take your time coz now its not mine and now cant explain reasons for miles. Today am leaving you all with best wishes in heart. May you get all you desire coz am ready to burn in this fire, Sometimes its better to say than to fight. So here's a final goodbye Dont call me from back, I may not be able to get again strong May God bless you all!
Packing my all belonging, i set off for the last journey Not aware if any destination but still i walk. My heart is heavy and my soul aches. The path is dark but i walk to search for a light. Light that will brighten my life and will never fuse. with silent prayers on my lips i walk scared on the path. I talk to God in my heart, telling Him how scared am i I pray to him "O Lord,grant me happiness i ask for his presence i wish he will ask for mine" Lost in his thoughts i walk. Stopping by a board saying"This way happiness" Before i moved to the happiness path, I ask my Lord "will he be there?" Not hearing any answer I fall on the ground "i can live without happiness but not without him, coz his presence will bring the happiness ultimate"
Forgive me my love, for my every sin. All my acts that have hurt. I cant take this burden anymore. My soul now bleeds so ashamed i am of my deeds, Forgive me my love, for my every sin. I hate myself for hurting you without seeing the pain in you. I never thought of doing this to you but still i ask for forgiveness. I want to take your hand and start another life. I want to love you again with sincerity and purity. Give me one chance, I promise I give your girl back. with everything that i lacked. Its only my fault that i forgot your pain. Somewhere between taking care of you, i forgot that i was hurting you. Today i realized my boy was my sunshine. You took away all relations with you and left me with tears few. Am all stuck on this path, please take my hand. I don't deserve this forgiveness but still i ask for your mercy. I don't believe my act, how can i betray ? I couldn't recognize the loyalty but forgive me. Oh my love. If you will be near no other mistake will be made. Forgive me my love, Give my your hand again
Oh these dark nights, look at these dark moments of life. Listen what they are telling. They carry the message of thousand people, people who love you. Dark nights write tales in fates. Some wait for love to knock, some enjoy their love near, and other spend time in loneliness. Sometimes people who walk beside us mean nothing. Why life partners dont walk beside us all life? Sometimes they are ours, sometimes just a dream. Mates do not say anything. We walk with them daily, not knowing about OUR destination. unaware of the bonds being broken. Together we wait for each other. to say something at least. But still we hesitate. We keep telling ourselves, "why me?cant he speak?" and time passes. In this clash, we don't hear the cracking sound of relationship. We realize this when sand has slipped. And then we end up on this "Those we love, never go away. They walk beside us everyday. Un-seen un-heard and still near, still loved , still missed , and still very dear
In dark night, i want to spend time with blue sea, all alone. With no one to questions me and with no one to answer me. I want to see blue sea. It is going to answer my questions that have made me uneasy in bed. I sit all alone on the wet sand and calm i am. when i see just my footprints I gaze at the deep blue sea, when it caresses me wet on my feet. Tears fall in my lap and i wonder "how it knows that i am sad?" In silent moments of the night, i ask. Through a cold breeze it answers, "i have seen billions of people this shore has heard different stories. Couples meet and love here in nights, lonely people come here. I hide their tears in my waves and calm them down. They forget these tears. when they are happy again. No one questions me whether am okay but still i carry tears for people so mean. For people like you, i keep pearls like this safe" with another wave, sea sent me a pearl. "visit me daily when you are free 'coz somewhere i need to know my fears" Sea went calm and slept with black blanket. I stood from my place with pearl in my hand and said "This is the reason sea is always blue
Love me once more, this life seems so small. I wanna be loved again I wanna love you again! The days we spent together, the nights we cuddled, I want to feel it again. I desire to learn you again, from the bottom. I desire for nothing more. I want to show it to myself that i love an angel. Bury me, somewhere between your arms. where i can crave for your love again. Let us enjoy the dark nights on terrace again. Let's make a silent prayer when we watch a falling star. Let's laugh on our innocence again. With closed eyes, lets feel each other's presence again. Let's communicate through eyes and say everything which words couldn't say. Let me be yours again, and let yourself be mine. Let's live this love again we may not get time!
Counting the days that passed i was drifted to our past. I settle myself in the desert's sand Lost in my thoughts i think of the unlucky day when we fought Laying down on my back, i look at the sky so dark No stars shine now, are they too angry coz i fibbed> Do they also think same? Cant they see tears that i shed? are they less than the pain he suffered? Is He telling me the same Who lived above seven clouds I find moon in the sky may be there he will be seeing too. Moon isn't here either He has taken everything with him making my life dim. So sure i am now, God is on his side that why He wasn't sad when i cried he surely is an angel from above whom i really love, "O lord forgive my for my sin, and make me his"
Today i stand alone in this rain, with my heart and soul full of pain. I hate leaves so green and flowers so bright. Because today my life is black and white. Every drop of this rain is giving me the ultimate pain. Tears run across my cheeks who make me more weak. I seek for pagal's voice, voice that promised me. "wont leave you in this condition and i ll stand by your every position" I cover my tummy with my hands but my patience is slipping like sand. In me ,part of pagal has grown now this loneliness makes me moan, I find no one taking my hand when from the bed i have to stand. No one locks the seat belt in the absence that i felt. Who is going to hold me tight when I'll bring new life to our life. Who will tell me, whether it's little him or little me? With a depressed heart, i sit in the rain water, waiting to hear "come lets enjoy rain under this umbrella" I drop my tear in the puddle and with my loneliness i cuddle.
Ever saw a girl of nineteen, who lives her life to the fullest She smiles,she laughs She in fact an angel from heaven. Every time you see her. shes going to smile at you no matter what shes goin through. She always do what is in her mind & will only walk on path she has find. Never trust her memory. she forgets the bad times like she is forty shes gets crazy when it rains. no matter how much she in in pain. She loves to listen love songs. And she won think of time that has gone. She in indeed a different girl in millions. may she achieves her dreams worth billions. May no woe comes near her May only happiness surrounds her. Saman is like sugar spice no doubt she is always nice!
Today i sit by a window am ready to open pages of my fate that brought me sadness and happiness strange. Fate has changed everything I shiver at its thought when i look back at my past. Childhood was a joyful part. i jumped,i laughed i enjoyed wish it never went away. Teenage brought feelings of bliss i stood with my love! Fate gave me my perfect match so loving,so caring,and so handsome. I found my destination Misunderstandings changed my fate all dreams shattered life changed I stand alone in frosty winds i die daily in those winds I fall on my knees and ask my God "why he wrote so many tests in fate? please let death date me" with this prayer on lips i turn the pages of my fate all are black and empty Tear fell on the page and wrote another sad tale
I open my eyes, so lucky i am. I know together he is going to make our life. And soon am going to be his wedded wife. I laugh,i get crazy when he tries to make me easy On my clothes he throws ink and when i stare he winks I am sure of my fate that wont make us hate Together we laugh,together we cry and we wont ever say Bye We lay on terrace late at night he covers me in his love tight He teases me on my silly acts I hide my face in his arms. so safe,so warm ,just mine that daily makes me all fine we laugh ,we tease we fight but we talk late at night I thank God for making a perfect match so i shout"i love you ,pagal"
Lets laugh on me Don't worry i wont mind coz today i have a shattered dream In life there will be no light beam He will take away all happiness coz i made a mess! I feel no frosty winds coz part of me is dead I don't feel sad when i walk alone on those dried leaves I am more hurt coz you are about to leave My dream is shattering so am i I shout ,i scream coz i have a shattered dream In this chilly wind i am going to stand alone No warmth will ignite my bone You don hear my cries, and now my tears have dried Let's laugh on me Don't worry i wont mind.
Recoiling against the corner wall I let my tears fall By a window,i lean i think of people so mean. So much darkness i see outside Or is it the sadness inside? His love was a blessing I realize this as i see days passing I laughed ,i smiled I really lived my life! "O my love,take my hand forever, and leave me never" I feel no warmth on bed, "I will be there "that's what you said. I don't know where to go, without you i feel so low. You hate when i cry, and soon i will die! Visit me daily on my grave so we find the loved we craved? I promise i will wait for you there So i can have you near!
Slow steps with a heavy heart, I walk slowly on this deserted path As milestone pass by, I silently ask my heart How long can you bear? “I don’t know, For me, my reason is not there, He was the one in millions One its word I smiled But poor heart criticized “You have been cruel” I fell on my knees, “I was the place where he ruled” But you are my heart! My misery is am you part Wish I could go away ‘Coz you betray!” I shouted back My soul does ache In life I feel his absence When I don’t smell his scent,/when I see crescent! Why do you complain? When you know I have gone insane Am afraid of darkness he knew, In me emptiness has grew Ever wonder, why I walk slow? So he finds when am no more. In hands I bury my face Tired I am of being strong fake On every move my soul bleeds When nowhere this path leads Every night I fall by a milestone To know how away he is more? I wound myself more Coz I betrayed a pure!
My lips were shuddering My mouth was dry I don know But I couldn’t try Hear a cracking voice inside So sure I was, Closing my eyes I let the eyes bleed! Moved to the calendar with a sad heart I mark today’s date with a red cross His girl is going to die I will burry her four feet deep So forever she sleeps His words have given wounds Which have broken all bonds Standing in front of mirror I see his girl breaking In darkness I stand, I see things getting blur Coz I know its time to go! I close my eyes, My voice doesn’t accompany I utter “I love you, May God bless you” With closed eyes, on floor I fall Later I opened eyes Heard a voice Don’t worry she’s safe Tears roll down And I say Is love so strong or like its aches?
